Sitting alone in a Singapore studio on Saturday morning throws up some questions!
I always wanted a sabbatical when I’d approach the oft-quoted notional number 40 – so voila I lost my job just before the 40th…. A decade back, I kept wanting to be in Singapore so here I am, ploughing through 5 years – part of which was spent nursing my depression and trying to jump off rooftops…. I wanted a beautiful, family life or none – so a divorce happened towards the none…
So, mid life is rearing it’s funny head and tearing away at whatever identity has been built in my conscious and unconscious mind as well as society’s.
Fit, Coupled, Sr. Director – losing one label at a time is creating an identity crisis or rather fear of the unknown… No future variables are defined…
But here comes the magic…. I also get the freedom – of not wanting. But of being. Being in the zone, in the flow of the present and moving, exploring life. It’s tough to shift the mind so used to planning the future… But mid-life is trying to show me and many of us the magic of life in its present.
Loss is inevitable and we have to shed one thing as we approach the final eventuality – jobs, partners, youth, health – all the things we want and hold to will go…
So time to loosen the grip, pick up the rucksack and explore the magic of midlife- of freedom, wisdom and life!
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